Atleast I feel tingly...

Well friends, another chapter of my dating life has ended. D and I are no more... here is how it went down.

Even though I promised you dear reader that I wouldn't make contact this week, I did. I know, I know, it wasn't the right thing to do. But when a pub crawl for a charity event is on the line, a girl has to do something. So after talking to "my people" I decided to take the plunge and put a call into D, simply to ask him if he was still in for the pub crawl. He answered and we caught up on how things were going, we talked about how busy he was, my weekend at the lake, and blah blah blah. He said that we could hang out Friday and that he was pretty sure he could do the pub crawl.

Today he texted me around lunch time asking if I was free tonight to grab coffee and hang out. This is pretty typical of our relationship, so I agreed. Little did I know at 4:00 I would be struck with a horrible migraine. I pushed through it though, came home, showered, popped a migraine pill and put on my super cute new outfit. I met D at our coffee shop, and he looked super cute...ugh. We had coffee, caught up, and I though things were going great. We even walked to a near by shop to look around. Things felt normal as ever. Then as we are walking back towards the coffee shop he dropped it on me. He said "I think I just want to be friends". I was caught so off guard between the migraine pill and shot of caffeine that I couldn't comprehend what he was saying. So I said "what did you say..." seriously because I didn't really hear what he said, he kinda whispered it the first time. He said the horrible 7 words and my heart kinda sank... He told me what an awesome girl I was and blah blah blah.... I know this, I didn't need him to remind me, it was the last thing I wanted to hear. He proceeded to say that he still wanted to be friends and continue to hang out. I was still in shock. Then he said that he would still like to go to the charity event with me in two weeks. I am pretty sure I looked at him like he was crazy. I told him that I had other people who were interested in taking his spot, and that I didn't want to make him hang out with me any more then he already had. I think this hurt him, but at that point I didn't really care... I was high on caffeine and trying to decide if I should cry or not (which I didn't). For once in my life I just kinda said how I felt. I thanked him for the coffee, he hugged me goodbye... I gave him a side pat on the back, and went to my car. Still didn't cry. 

I just kinda felt numb inside. Maybe the migraine was a blessing. I called my girlfriend and like a awesome chick, she came and picked me up and took me straight to a bar. I ordered a beer and we talked about girl stuff. I will have to give it to D. Unlike Mr. Wrong, he was man enough to tell me how he felt to my face, and I appreciate that. He really is a good guy, and I truly wish him the best in life. I just don't want to be friends with someone that I once dated, and was romantically interested in... that is too confusing!

As my friend drove me home, I just felt numb and tingly. I'm sure it was the breakup cocktail... 

Saavy's Breakup Cocktail:

1 stressful week mixed with 1 uncertain relationship

2 Tylenol combined with one Advil from the school nurse

Add a diet coke and a long ride home from school

1 hour to get dressed and make yourself perky even though you feel like dog poo

1 prescription migraine pill added to 5 saltines and 1 sprite

1 smoking hot outfit with a banging hair day... what a waste

2 cups of coffee that the cute guy you are with bought you because the barista messed up and didn't know if you wanted a hot or iced skinny vanilla latte

1 guy telling you he wants to just be friends...

Stir in one phone call to your best friend who perks you up and is there to get you within 5 minutes of your call

Order 1 extra large Miller Light with Lime from a cute bartender, explaining that you just got dumped

Notice a hot guy across the bar that you are too scared to talk to... realize there are still cute boys out there

Fold in one car ride home where you feel so numb and tingly inside due to the medication, caffeine and alcohol kicking in, laugh with your friend

Finally, gain the knowledge that this relationship didn't workout because God has someone better for you out there...