#SB14

How do you know you had a great spring break? You know it when your face is swollen from all the boozy carbs and your body is physically exhausted from all the hustle and bustle. This morning it took a lot of self-talk to get out of bed. The sun beaming in through my bedroom window was the only thing that shuffled me to the closet to get dressed for church. For educators, spring break is nothing but a big tease! Nine days of relaxing and unwinding, only to have to jump back into the daily grind again Monday morning at 5:30 am. I have my crockpot going and my meals planned out for the week. I’m really trying to refocus.

My favorite pastor JP really spoke to me this morning when he said, “If you’re too busy to pray, then you are too busy”. I am too busy sometimes to stop and smell the roses, or to get on my knees and thank The Lord for my daily blessings. This week has proven that I need to cut some things out of my life. I thoroughly enjoyed being at my apartment, getting things organized, and just mentally and physically relaxing. I’ve become a girl that doesn't like to sit at home, craving the constant social connection and being constantly on the go.  But am I still that girl? Or is that the girl I became three years ago to avoid being alone? After my break up with Mr. Wrong I jumped into every social organization imaginable (kickball, church small group, Junior League, book club, dinner club, private practice, happy hours, gym memberships, volunteering). This week off has truly made me reflect on my social calendar. Maybe it is time to SLOW down and cut some of the fluff out of my busy days and long nights. What am I running towards? Or really what I have I been trying to avoid? I think I am finally at a place in my life that I am craving and desperately in need of down time. I need to be able to come home and have nothing to do…. and more importantly not feel scared about it. I’m at that point. I am ok with it just being me. I know that in order to prepare myself for my future spouse, that I need to really spend some time with me (and God).

Now don’t go thinking in your head that I’m going to become a hermit, too much quiet would drive this girl crazy. I’m just looking to seeing some days in my Google calendar without a color-coded appointment.